Ok Ok it is time to get back at this. Maybe then I will get some insite to why I am feeling so under the weather so to speak.

First off, I had to put Ben to sleep. I wasn't happy about it and deep down I know it is for the best but I still believe that maybe just maybe it was my fault. It is so so lonely here now. I used to look forward to coming home to see him and put him outside, getting up in the mornings to walk him and just watch him play outside. Now I don't have him. I have been told to get another but I can't. Ben isn't replaceable. I just can't see me ever having another dog.

Then my friend Ann. What a nut. She calls me yesterday telling me that her nail lady was on the Depo shot and her doctor took her off it because she was gaining weight. She tells me that is why I am not losing. HA! I have been on the shot for about 12 years now, I lost 45 pounds while on the shot so it ain't the shot! Sooo here is my little bit of a 'I told you so'. Gord her husband is home for the month of April so that means she has to stick around home. So I am going to follow weight watchers to the T. I will track everything. I have warned the gals up at Pizza Delight what I am up to and they will help me out up there. I hope, no I know I will do this for the whole month of April and at the end of the month we will see.

My sister isn't talking to be, what else is new. She contacted me for the DVD from the catamaran trip. I sent it to her. I think we exchanged 4 FB messages since Feb 15 the day we got home from Cuba. You know what? I didn't do anything wrong so I am not going to make the effort to contact her. She has a bee in her bonnet she has to get over it.

Alex is coming up on Thursday this week. Can't wait to see him. Friday we are going to get my new to me sectional. OOOOO I can't wait. Saturday Aunt Marion, Uncle Bob and Trisha are coming here for a late lunch. Turkey time!!! And I am cooking...good luck with that.

Anyway that is enough for tonight, time to get some shut eye.