I have had enough, I feel like I am going crazy. Guess I was never ment to live with someone. I just can't do it anymore. Why did I ever allow this to happen? Now I feel like a schmuck if I ask him to leave but what option do I have? I am pretty much broke now I emptied the last of my RRSP's out yesterday because we have no groceries. Everything I buy to aid in my weight loss is gone before I even get to it. I have put on 30 pounds in a year, that is not good. I hate myself for letting it happen, I hate the look of myself. I just want to scream it at the top of my lungs. My work is my refuge. Wish I could sleep there but I can't. I can escape when I am there. I am tired of all of this. The Catherine bullshit, the not doing anything and the wanting it all the time. I am not built like that. I just can't handle it any more. I feel like I am losing control.