Well I am not impressed tonight. I went to get my treat for the week and low and behold it was gone. So I decide I want to have some cereal, the milk is sour. I got so upset that I just felt like crying. But I didn't I got pissed off instead. And here I am and he is in bed thank God.

Weight watchers was another gain, that is why I wanted my treat as I won't be able to have a treat for an awful long time. But oh well, guess I was never ment to be happy as everything that makes me happy is 'forbidden'. What a way to live the rest of my life. Be happy and compromise my health or be miserable and be healthy. Nice choices.

Checked the prices of flights to Seattle, since the last time I checked they have gone up like $45.00 but I am afraid if I don't go I won't last too long in this house. I am beginning to hate coming home anymore. I stay up until like 1am every night to make sure he is sleeping or I fall asleep on the couch. Am I ever cold hearted. Sometimes I just wish I could drop off the face of the earth, or just start all over, again. But I am too chicken. I would rather be unhappy than to start over or kick him out. I don't have a backbone for that kind of stuff as I was in that position once and would have given my left arm to have someone help me. But really is it all worth it?

Well I told Judy from Weight Watchers (hi Judy) that I would post some more pictures if I can. I will try.

Off to upload....Ciao