So I went to see Prairie Oyster at the casino tonight. Sometimes I think I am just torchering myself going to things like that. The band was good though. I had forgotten how much I like them. But then I miss dancing. Why can't it be like it used to be when I lived in Cadomin. Friday and Saturday nights at the legion. I always had men complimenting me, even the married ones. It has been a very long time since I have been asked to dance.

I am missing Jason tonight. Not really sure if I am really thinking that it was a good thing that he left or not. I really am lonely. I have never felt this way before. It still hurts where my heart is and I still feel like crying every night. Guess you can say this is a bad night.

Weight watchers is gone to the way side. I am hoping by doing the Terry Fox Run tomorrow that it will be a turning point to get back on the program. I am not feeling good about myself at all right now. Must be that time of year.

Anywho, time to go, I have to get some sleep so that I can get up and have a bite to eat before the run. Good night