It is totally amazing how much more my heart beats when I add 30 seconds to my bike time. But day 3 on it, 11 min at 18kms so I am doing good. Well except the 6 wings I had for supper and the chocolate bar. Especially one day before weigh in. Am I stupid or what?
Last night was entertaining. Ted is back in town, and I sat and chatted with him for 45 min at Pizza Delight. I haven't seen him in like 6 years and back then I had a crush on him. Seeing him well brought that back and I am smiling ear to ear all the time. He wanted to see my vacation pictures so I added him to Facebook. Oh how I wish he would start chatting on there with me as well. I so want a date for the Pengrowth Christmas Party.
Lisa said she would go to the Infratech one with me so that is good. I get my 5 year watch this year, and although I say whoopie, I am quite proud of myself for making it 5 years in one job, a job I love. I do hope I will be there for a long time. See my work life is going great, my finances are almost where I want them, now just to find someone to share my life with. I hope that I found that person but we will see how it all unfolds.
I hope I sleep well tonight, I don't have to go get the truck as I had no deliveries tonight so I still have the truck here. Have my shower in the morning. Tomorrow is chilli day at work, and I have some oatmeal and milk at work so all I have to bring is fruit & veggies.
I hope I have a good WI tomorrow. It is time for this chickie to go to bed. Bon Nuit
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Well here it is Sunday. WHAT A DAY!! Ann had me up at 8am to go to Edmonton, we went to the WEM casino for awhile, then I went to Chapters and got a book, went to HMV got 2 CD's for Alex, went for lunch (had that food court Chinese crap, but it sure was good), then went to the Park 'N' Ride to get us to the Eskimos game.
Ann had her whole family there which was nice, she got to spend time with her cousin and his grandson, her mother in law and aunt and of course her hubby and her daughter. Then Alex and his friend Nate came and sat with me which was nice then I had someone to talk to. I had a stupid stadium hotdog which I shouldn't have had but oh well I love those dogs.
Then we stopped at Safeway on the way home and boy was it nice to be home after a long day. Alex then informs me the Cavalier is overheating but he is going to fix it and for me not to worry. Like that will happen, I worry about everything. Him and Jim are going to look at it, he seems to think it is just the thermostat. Thank goodness.
Had my shower and talked to a good friend who pushed me to get on that darn bike. And I did. 10.5 min holding steady at 18.7kM's. I am getting better. Now hopefully I will have enough energy to get up at 6 in the morning to do 10 min more. I know I am ready to do this now. A wake up call in the shower with my lower back hurting so much opened my eyes again about my weight. I will get this weight off. I know I will. Last week was a stay the same, this week is going to be a loss.
Well g'nite
Ann had her whole family there which was nice, she got to spend time with her cousin and his grandson, her mother in law and aunt and of course her hubby and her daughter. Then Alex and his friend Nate came and sat with me which was nice then I had someone to talk to. I had a stupid stadium hotdog which I shouldn't have had but oh well I love those dogs.
Then we stopped at Safeway on the way home and boy was it nice to be home after a long day. Alex then informs me the Cavalier is overheating but he is going to fix it and for me not to worry. Like that will happen, I worry about everything. Him and Jim are going to look at it, he seems to think it is just the thermostat. Thank goodness.
Had my shower and talked to a good friend who pushed me to get on that darn bike. And I did. 10.5 min holding steady at 18.7kM's. I am getting better. Now hopefully I will have enough energy to get up at 6 in the morning to do 10 min more. I know I am ready to do this now. A wake up call in the shower with my lower back hurting so much opened my eyes again about my weight. I will get this weight off. I know I will. Last week was a stay the same, this week is going to be a loss.
Well g'nite
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Day 3, ha surprised you didn't I. Three days in a row I have blogged now. I told you I would try and post every day.
So I got on my evil contraption called my recumbant bike again today. I kept 'er steady at 20 kM's and was on it for 10 minutes. Wholly cow, my legs are going to hurt tomorrow. But tomorrow is weigh in, I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Was busy delivering tonight, had 8 but I am glad it was busy or I would have gone crazy with what happened at work today. I just wish people would keep their noses out of other peoples business when it doesn't concern them. And if something was said don't go blowing it out of proportion. Oh some times I hope I get to work in town soon but that doesn't look like it will happen. I guess it isn't on their list of priorities. But going to Edmonton for a team building exercise is...like WTF?
But I am off to bed. I have to get some cough drops tomorrow, I have this tickle in my throat and I am afraid to start coughing for fear I won't quit. So ciao.
So I got on my evil contraption called my recumbant bike again today. I kept 'er steady at 20 kM's and was on it for 10 minutes. Wholly cow, my legs are going to hurt tomorrow. But tomorrow is weigh in, I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Was busy delivering tonight, had 8 but I am glad it was busy or I would have gone crazy with what happened at work today. I just wish people would keep their noses out of other peoples business when it doesn't concern them. And if something was said don't go blowing it out of proportion. Oh some times I hope I get to work in town soon but that doesn't look like it will happen. I guess it isn't on their list of priorities. But going to Edmonton for a team building exercise is...like WTF?
But I am off to bed. I have to get some cough drops tomorrow, I have this tickle in my throat and I am afraid to start coughing for fear I won't quit. So ciao.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Ahhh see I remembered tonight. Today was a typical Monday. Michelle didn't work as she was sick. Arlene was the bitch we all know she can be. Accusing me of assuming why Michelle wasn't at work. Well hell a friend of hers was killed in a car accident on the weekend and 3 of her friends are in the hospital, one is paralysed. I wouldn't go to work either.
Was a good day food wise. Everything is tracked, got all my water in (hopefully I won't be in the biffy all night). But I do have a major headache. But that is what only 3 hours sleep will do to a person. Once Dancing with the Stars is over I am done for the night.
I am going to get on the bike in the morning as I just can't tonight. I may not even last until the show is over. My deposit and my insurance was put through on my credit card today, I guess I have to go now...LOL
Well I am going to go take a couple Advil and see what will happen. Niters
Was a good day food wise. Everything is tracked, got all my water in (hopefully I won't be in the biffy all night). But I do have a major headache. But that is what only 3 hours sleep will do to a person. Once Dancing with the Stars is over I am done for the night.
I am going to get on the bike in the morning as I just can't tonight. I may not even last until the show is over. My deposit and my insurance was put through on my credit card today, I guess I have to go now...LOL
Well I am going to go take a couple Advil and see what will happen. Niters
Sunday, September 26, 2010
It is time once again to start blogging. I have so much to say but always forget to say it. Lets see what's been happening...
It is Sunday and once again I was pissed off at work. I just get to have my shower and get to the grocery store and what happens? They call me. Oh how I hat working on an on call basis like this especailly on the weekends. But I did get 11 deliveries and made another $30 in tips. At the end of the month all my tips are going onto the VISA card to get it paid down.
My sister still hasn't talked to me, oh well her loss. I can't worry about what is up her ass anymore. I have tried to make contact 3 times and well nothing came of it so what ever.
I am still not moved into town for work. If it so happens I hope it happens before the snow flies. Oh how I hate travelling that road in the winter.
Tomorrow is another beginning to a short week thank goodness. Getting my hair did on Friday and my final football game on Sunday. Can't wait.
I paid my deposit on my trip to Venezuela. I can not believe that I am going to go there. In November I go to Seattle which I am looking forward to. Then Christmas at Alex's. It should be a end to the year.
Vicky isn't talking to me again. I don't get it but again I can't lose any sleep over it. Although she is a great friend I am sure I do things that drive her around the bend. Gail has offered to put flowers on my mom's grave for me. I really don't know how to react to that as no one has ever offered that. And for it to come from someone I don't really know in person, well I must say I am a lucky person to have Gail as a friend. I am now really seriously going to plan a trip to Ontario next year when there is another invasion. MissB from the weight watcher boards has been a God send as well getting me on track and helping me. I can't tell her how much it means to me that she is doing this. My pride gets in the way a lot and I don't ask for help when I need it.
I am excited about weigh in this week, I hope I did well again like last week. Here's to hoping.
Well gotta go to bed. Night all.
It is Sunday and once again I was pissed off at work. I just get to have my shower and get to the grocery store and what happens? They call me. Oh how I hat working on an on call basis like this especailly on the weekends. But I did get 11 deliveries and made another $30 in tips. At the end of the month all my tips are going onto the VISA card to get it paid down.
My sister still hasn't talked to me, oh well her loss. I can't worry about what is up her ass anymore. I have tried to make contact 3 times and well nothing came of it so what ever.
I am still not moved into town for work. If it so happens I hope it happens before the snow flies. Oh how I hate travelling that road in the winter.
Tomorrow is another beginning to a short week thank goodness. Getting my hair did on Friday and my final football game on Sunday. Can't wait.
I paid my deposit on my trip to Venezuela. I can not believe that I am going to go there. In November I go to Seattle which I am looking forward to. Then Christmas at Alex's. It should be a end to the year.
Vicky isn't talking to me again. I don't get it but again I can't lose any sleep over it. Although she is a great friend I am sure I do things that drive her around the bend. Gail has offered to put flowers on my mom's grave for me. I really don't know how to react to that as no one has ever offered that. And for it to come from someone I don't really know in person, well I must say I am a lucky person to have Gail as a friend. I am now really seriously going to plan a trip to Ontario next year when there is another invasion. MissB from the weight watcher boards has been a God send as well getting me on track and helping me. I can't tell her how much it means to me that she is doing this. My pride gets in the way a lot and I don't ask for help when I need it.
I am excited about weigh in this week, I hope I did well again like last week. Here's to hoping.
Well gotta go to bed. Night all.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Well here it is 12:06am and can I sleep? No. I hate it when I can't sleep which is more often than not. So I figure why not add another entry here. After all it has been a while.
So lets see, what is new or happening in my life? Ha! Not much of anything. My sister still isn't talking to me and it has been sinc Feb 15, 2010 now, I work to much or so I am told, I haven't been out walking because of the friggin rain which also has made my grass grow to mammoth proportions, I have volunteered for the Air Show this coming Wednesday so I can't weigh in, which in turn my mind thinks that allows me to eat everything in sight and I am working in town again this week. The great thing abou this week is I am working 2 days and maybe a part day on Friday. Friday is also the football game of which I am hoping someone will go with me as I hate going by myself.
I ended up having a melt down on Saturday night, ended up drinking 3 beer and clam, something I never ever do. I wanted the day to be a good day, but right before bed I started thinking about mom and how much I miss her. Then that got me thinking about how lonely I really am. I think that is why I volunteered for the Air Show. To get out and do something. I just hope we have some great weather for it. I don't want to get eaten alive by mosquitos because of the wet. I will have to pack a bag for that day. I don't want to eat junk all day long. I hope there will be lots of water as I have to get back to drinking 2L per day and eating right. Which means I have to do groceries tomorrow.
But I think I am going to find a couple Advil or Aleve maybe that will help me sleep. Or I can dring the rest of the bottle of wine in the fridge I am sure that will make me sleepy. HA HA
So lets see, what is new or happening in my life? Ha! Not much of anything. My sister still isn't talking to me and it has been sinc Feb 15, 2010 now, I work to much or so I am told, I haven't been out walking because of the friggin rain which also has made my grass grow to mammoth proportions, I have volunteered for the Air Show this coming Wednesday so I can't weigh in, which in turn my mind thinks that allows me to eat everything in sight and I am working in town again this week. The great thing abou this week is I am working 2 days and maybe a part day on Friday. Friday is also the football game of which I am hoping someone will go with me as I hate going by myself.
I ended up having a melt down on Saturday night, ended up drinking 3 beer and clam, something I never ever do. I wanted the day to be a good day, but right before bed I started thinking about mom and how much I miss her. Then that got me thinking about how lonely I really am. I think that is why I volunteered for the Air Show. To get out and do something. I just hope we have some great weather for it. I don't want to get eaten alive by mosquitos because of the wet. I will have to pack a bag for that day. I don't want to eat junk all day long. I hope there will be lots of water as I have to get back to drinking 2L per day and eating right. Which means I have to do groceries tomorrow.
But I think I am going to find a couple Advil or Aleve maybe that will help me sleep. Or I can dring the rest of the bottle of wine in the fridge I am sure that will make me sleepy. HA HA
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Oh I forgot
April 29 ~ 301.2
May 6 ~ 299.0
May 13 ~ ??
It's Mother's Day today. I do hope my mom knows how much I miss her everyday. Alex called me today which was a surprise, I didn't think he would as he called me last week. It is Erin's birthday today as well so I guess mom takes the back burner.
I bought myself 2 new books, my Woman's World magazine and a medium blizzard for Mother's Day. Cost me a whole $30 which is pretty good I think. I picked up a new phone on Friday and will claim it on income tax next year as it is for work to a point. It is a different kind of phone but I am sure I will get used to it.
Tuesday is the community cleanup so tomorrow I have to get Jason's couch out to the curb as it is getting tossed. Then I will have lots of room on my deck for other things. There is a new pest killer out there that I am going to go look for so that no pests will pester me this year. Tomorrow I have to clean the kitchen as well. Maybe make some supper.
Went for coffee with Ann tonight as I was feeling a little bored and lonely. It is these 'special' days that I feel like just falling off the face of the earth. Oh well. Still haven't heard from my sister. February 15th was the last time I actually talked to her except for a few messages on Facebook in March wanting the DVD from the catamaran trip. So whatever, I don't need her childish ways. We will see how long this will last. Christmas is coming and she is greedy enough that I bet she will talk to me before then to cash in on that day. That is sad to say but whatever.
Anywho, time to get lunch ready for tomorrow and relax before bedtime.
Ciao
April 29 ~ 301.2
May 6 ~ 299.0
May 13 ~ ??
It's Mother's Day today. I do hope my mom knows how much I miss her everyday. Alex called me today which was a surprise, I didn't think he would as he called me last week. It is Erin's birthday today as well so I guess mom takes the back burner.
I bought myself 2 new books, my Woman's World magazine and a medium blizzard for Mother's Day. Cost me a whole $30 which is pretty good I think. I picked up a new phone on Friday and will claim it on income tax next year as it is for work to a point. It is a different kind of phone but I am sure I will get used to it.
Tuesday is the community cleanup so tomorrow I have to get Jason's couch out to the curb as it is getting tossed. Then I will have lots of room on my deck for other things. There is a new pest killer out there that I am going to go look for so that no pests will pester me this year. Tomorrow I have to clean the kitchen as well. Maybe make some supper.
Went for coffee with Ann tonight as I was feeling a little bored and lonely. It is these 'special' days that I feel like just falling off the face of the earth. Oh well. Still haven't heard from my sister. February 15th was the last time I actually talked to her except for a few messages on Facebook in March wanting the DVD from the catamaran trip. So whatever, I don't need her childish ways. We will see how long this will last. Christmas is coming and she is greedy enough that I bet she will talk to me before then to cash in on that day. That is sad to say but whatever.
Anywho, time to get lunch ready for tomorrow and relax before bedtime.
Ciao
Monday, April 19, 2010
Well it's Monday & thank goodness it is over. I got lots of work done today at work, more than normal that's for sure. I hope to be just as productive tomorrow. That is if I sleep tonight. It is just after 9 and I could climb into bed and sleep sleep sleep.
Only had 3 deliveries tonight. Was done at 7 so that was good as well. Had a pretty good day eating wise, no junk for a change. But oh what I would have done for a blizzard today. Vicky was talking about it on facebook and I was going to go get one if I had another delivery but I didn't so I had 2 little mandarin oranges instead. Tomorrow I get to go for groceries as it is payday. Woo Hoo! I am so craving fruit lately I don't know why. Especially different fruit like watermelon, or mango.
It was a beautiful day today. It got up to 21 at least. It is 23.4 in my house right now and it isn't to bad. I had Tim re-set my thermostat for the summer now. So the furnace shouldn't kick in until late fall. At least I will be able to save some money now as I haven't turned on a light either and I am turning the computer on later and later in the evenings.
Alex & Erin are looking at houses again tomorrow and Thursday. I hope they find what they want and what they can afford. All that is on tv now is hockey, hockey and more hockey. I have been watching some but get bored of it easily.
Well I guess, it is that time. Time to sit around until at least 11 so I can sleep. Another day done, tomorrow is yet another.
Only had 3 deliveries tonight. Was done at 7 so that was good as well. Had a pretty good day eating wise, no junk for a change. But oh what I would have done for a blizzard today. Vicky was talking about it on facebook and I was going to go get one if I had another delivery but I didn't so I had 2 little mandarin oranges instead. Tomorrow I get to go for groceries as it is payday. Woo Hoo! I am so craving fruit lately I don't know why. Especially different fruit like watermelon, or mango.
It was a beautiful day today. It got up to 21 at least. It is 23.4 in my house right now and it isn't to bad. I had Tim re-set my thermostat for the summer now. So the furnace shouldn't kick in until late fall. At least I will be able to save some money now as I haven't turned on a light either and I am turning the computer on later and later in the evenings.
Alex & Erin are looking at houses again tomorrow and Thursday. I hope they find what they want and what they can afford. All that is on tv now is hockey, hockey and more hockey. I have been watching some but get bored of it easily.
Well I guess, it is that time. Time to sit around until at least 11 so I can sleep. Another day done, tomorrow is yet another.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
WOW I got 2 count them 2 comments on my last post. It has been a week since my personal challenge started and tomorrow is my first WI. I am a little nervous because of the Easter weekend but I am going to weigh myself. Wish me luck.
What a weekend it was. Really busy. Thursday Alex came home and we did not much of anything as he was tired and so was I. I had 10 deliveries that night then went for coffee with Ann before Gord got home. Friday, Marci, Bruce. Alex and I went and got my new to me sectional from Dianna's house. Then Alex and I cleaned and cleaned. Wow what a difference a clean house makes. So I guess I got some AP's in that day. Friday night Alex went out and so did I. I went with my Avon lady friend to the Casino and actually won some money, YAH! Saturday I finished up cleaning the house and put in my turkey. Aunt Marion, Uncle Bob and Trisha came for a turkey lunch and it turned out pretty good. They brought my two wing back chairs so I now have 2 mint green chairs and my black sectional with a huge table in my living room. It looks pretty darn good. Alex left after brunch on Sunday and I delivered Sunday night. I was sad to see him go but I will see him soon. Monday I took off because Good Friday was my scheduled Friday off so what the heck.
Saturday after my Aunt got home she phoned me telling me that my sister called her and started talking about me and how she would never go on vacation with me again. Well the feeling is mutual. My Aunt told me she didn't say much to her which I am not believing for one minute because when I got home after my delivery shift my sister deleted me as a friend on facebook. My sister is 50 years old playing a 14 year olds game. I am not playing with her anymore. I did nothing to her for her to act this way and I won't be apologizing to her to 'win' her back. She can go to hell. It isn't the first time she has pulled this and it won't be the last.
Well tomorrow is coming up fast. I really don't want to weigh in tomorrow but I will and I will post it both here in the evening and on the GDT in the morning. Keep your fingers crossed that I did well.
Ciao
What a weekend it was. Really busy. Thursday Alex came home and we did not much of anything as he was tired and so was I. I had 10 deliveries that night then went for coffee with Ann before Gord got home. Friday, Marci, Bruce. Alex and I went and got my new to me sectional from Dianna's house. Then Alex and I cleaned and cleaned. Wow what a difference a clean house makes. So I guess I got some AP's in that day. Friday night Alex went out and so did I. I went with my Avon lady friend to the Casino and actually won some money, YAH! Saturday I finished up cleaning the house and put in my turkey. Aunt Marion, Uncle Bob and Trisha came for a turkey lunch and it turned out pretty good. They brought my two wing back chairs so I now have 2 mint green chairs and my black sectional with a huge table in my living room. It looks pretty darn good. Alex left after brunch on Sunday and I delivered Sunday night. I was sad to see him go but I will see him soon. Monday I took off because Good Friday was my scheduled Friday off so what the heck.
Saturday after my Aunt got home she phoned me telling me that my sister called her and started talking about me and how she would never go on vacation with me again. Well the feeling is mutual. My Aunt told me she didn't say much to her which I am not believing for one minute because when I got home after my delivery shift my sister deleted me as a friend on facebook. My sister is 50 years old playing a 14 year olds game. I am not playing with her anymore. I did nothing to her for her to act this way and I won't be apologizing to her to 'win' her back. She can go to hell. It isn't the first time she has pulled this and it won't be the last.
Well tomorrow is coming up fast. I really don't want to weigh in tomorrow but I will and I will post it both here in the evening and on the GDT in the morning. Keep your fingers crossed that I did well.
Ciao
Monday, March 29, 2010
Ok Ok it is time to get back at this. Maybe then I will get some insite to why I am feeling so under the weather so to speak.
First off, I had to put Ben to sleep. I wasn't happy about it and deep down I know it is for the best but I still believe that maybe just maybe it was my fault. It is so so lonely here now. I used to look forward to coming home to see him and put him outside, getting up in the mornings to walk him and just watch him play outside. Now I don't have him. I have been told to get another but I can't. Ben isn't replaceable. I just can't see me ever having another dog.
Then my friend Ann. What a nut. She calls me yesterday telling me that her nail lady was on the Depo shot and her doctor took her off it because she was gaining weight. She tells me that is why I am not losing. HA! I have been on the shot for about 12 years now, I lost 45 pounds while on the shot so it ain't the shot! Sooo here is my little bit of a 'I told you so'. Gord her husband is home for the month of April so that means she has to stick around home. So I am going to follow weight watchers to the T. I will track everything. I have warned the gals up at Pizza Delight what I am up to and they will help me out up there. I hope, no I know I will do this for the whole month of April and at the end of the month we will see.
My sister isn't talking to be, what else is new. She contacted me for the DVD from the catamaran trip. I sent it to her. I think we exchanged 4 FB messages since Feb 15 the day we got home from Cuba. You know what? I didn't do anything wrong so I am not going to make the effort to contact her. She has a bee in her bonnet she has to get over it.
Alex is coming up on Thursday this week. Can't wait to see him. Friday we are going to get my new to me sectional. OOOOO I can't wait. Saturday Aunt Marion, Uncle Bob and Trisha are coming here for a late lunch. Turkey time!!! And I am cooking...good luck with that.
Anyway that is enough for tonight, time to get some shut eye.
First off, I had to put Ben to sleep. I wasn't happy about it and deep down I know it is for the best but I still believe that maybe just maybe it was my fault. It is so so lonely here now. I used to look forward to coming home to see him and put him outside, getting up in the mornings to walk him and just watch him play outside. Now I don't have him. I have been told to get another but I can't. Ben isn't replaceable. I just can't see me ever having another dog.
Then my friend Ann. What a nut. She calls me yesterday telling me that her nail lady was on the Depo shot and her doctor took her off it because she was gaining weight. She tells me that is why I am not losing. HA! I have been on the shot for about 12 years now, I lost 45 pounds while on the shot so it ain't the shot! Sooo here is my little bit of a 'I told you so'. Gord her husband is home for the month of April so that means she has to stick around home. So I am going to follow weight watchers to the T. I will track everything. I have warned the gals up at Pizza Delight what I am up to and they will help me out up there. I hope, no I know I will do this for the whole month of April and at the end of the month we will see.
My sister isn't talking to be, what else is new. She contacted me for the DVD from the catamaran trip. I sent it to her. I think we exchanged 4 FB messages since Feb 15 the day we got home from Cuba. You know what? I didn't do anything wrong so I am not going to make the effort to contact her. She has a bee in her bonnet she has to get over it.
Alex is coming up on Thursday this week. Can't wait to see him. Friday we are going to get my new to me sectional. OOOOO I can't wait. Saturday Aunt Marion, Uncle Bob and Trisha are coming here for a late lunch. Turkey time!!! And I am cooking...good luck with that.
Anyway that is enough for tonight, time to get some shut eye.
Monday, January 18, 2010
5.5 hours last night. I kept that mask on from 12:11am to 5:40am. Glory be I do hope I am getting used to it. My fingers are crossed for another good night tonight.
My morning was the shits. I forgot that I didn't go get the truck last night so I took my time in the shower this morning. Went to reach for some body wash, wondered why it wasn't lathering up like it was supposed to and low and behold I grabbed body lotion. Then 3 guys from work were let go. One was there for over 20 years. They will be missed. I will just keep going until they tell me not to.
But with the bad comes the good. Our Cuba tickets are in and ready to be picked up. Woot Woot!!. This time 3 weeks from now I will be in Cuba, soaking up the sun, relaxing and just plain having fun. I can't wait.
Tonight I was looking into going to a 'Fat Farm'. It is an option. But I am going to really put my all into it this coming week at Weight Watchers. I just hope that Jackie isn't the leader as I won't stay if she is. Not after last week and how rude she was to me.
But it is time to go for tonight. Keep your fingers crossed that I will be able to keep that machine on tonight, all night.
My morning was the shits. I forgot that I didn't go get the truck last night so I took my time in the shower this morning. Went to reach for some body wash, wondered why it wasn't lathering up like it was supposed to and low and behold I grabbed body lotion. Then 3 guys from work were let go. One was there for over 20 years. They will be missed. I will just keep going until they tell me not to.
But with the bad comes the good. Our Cuba tickets are in and ready to be picked up. Woot Woot!!. This time 3 weeks from now I will be in Cuba, soaking up the sun, relaxing and just plain having fun. I can't wait.
Tonight I was looking into going to a 'Fat Farm'. It is an option. But I am going to really put my all into it this coming week at Weight Watchers. I just hope that Jackie isn't the leader as I won't stay if she is. Not after last week and how rude she was to me.
But it is time to go for tonight. Keep your fingers crossed that I will be able to keep that machine on tonight, all night.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Monday, wow how time flies. Ben seems to be doing better since I added the heater and blanket. Still not the best but not as bad as he was.
I was going to go to the gym tonight but didn't get there. Good God I need to get motivated and get this under control. I am going to try again starting tomorrow as it is pretty late tonight. I have to put Ben out and then it is bed time for me. Today is the first day in a long time that I was tired at work. So I have to keep that machine on tonight no matter what.
I deliver tomorrow so I want to make a soup for supper. I just have to ask the WW gals about substitutions. I want to use fresh veggies not frozen ones. If I can't then I will use the frozen ones.
I can't stop thinking about that guy from the casino in Edmonton. Hope his date went well. I hope that 2010 will be my year to meet my guy. That would sure be incentive to lose that's for sure. Look how much I lost when dating Jason. So I will keep my hopes & dreams forefront so that it will happen. I so don't want to be alone another year.
I was going to go to the gym tonight but didn't get there. Good God I need to get motivated and get this under control. I am going to try again starting tomorrow as it is pretty late tonight. I have to put Ben out and then it is bed time for me. Today is the first day in a long time that I was tired at work. So I have to keep that machine on tonight no matter what.
I deliver tomorrow so I want to make a soup for supper. I just have to ask the WW gals about substitutions. I want to use fresh veggies not frozen ones. If I can't then I will use the frozen ones.
I can't stop thinking about that guy from the casino in Edmonton. Hope his date went well. I hope that 2010 will be my year to meet my guy. That would sure be incentive to lose that's for sure. Look how much I lost when dating Jason. So I will keep my hopes & dreams forefront so that it will happen. I so don't want to be alone another year.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Just got back from seeing the Blind Side. What a great movie. That's a keeper when it comes out on DVD. Such a powerful story. Maybe I will get to see Mike Oher play against Seattle next year. Wouldn't that be a treat.
Ben isn't doing so good. He was shaking this morning when I got him up to go gouside this morning. But he did eat today and drink and did his business outside so that is good. I worked 8 hours today, wow am I tired. I have a headache tonight as well. After work I bought Ben some more treats, a new blanket and a heater. I am hoping that he is going to start gaining some weight and get back to normal. I am so afraid of coming home one day and he will be gone. A friend said if that happens she will take him for me as I would never be able to touch him. I don't know what I did wrong with him. I really don't. I just want him to get better and back to his normal self.
So it seems that when I went for my Sleep Apnea testing that I quit breathing 8 times every hour. When I had the loner CPAP machine over Christmas that number went down to 3 times every hour. So I am now the proud owner of a brand new CPAP machine. I am hoping that one day I won't need it but that may not be possible. I was able to use this one for 4 hours and 15 minutes last night before I had to take it off. So not bad really. I will take care of my headache tonight before going to bed and tomorrow I don't have to be up for any specific time as I am just delivering so no setting of any alarms tomorrow. YAY! I can also spend the whole day at home with the dog and watch him. I really do hope that he will be ok. And if there is a God I hope that he is listening and help my Ben out. I would hate to lose him. But if he is in any pain or what not I would hope that God would take him. I get so sad and choked up even thinking about it. I just hope that he loves his heater and his blanket.
But time to take a headache pill.
Ben isn't doing so good. He was shaking this morning when I got him up to go gouside this morning. But he did eat today and drink and did his business outside so that is good. I worked 8 hours today, wow am I tired. I have a headache tonight as well. After work I bought Ben some more treats, a new blanket and a heater. I am hoping that he is going to start gaining some weight and get back to normal. I am so afraid of coming home one day and he will be gone. A friend said if that happens she will take him for me as I would never be able to touch him. I don't know what I did wrong with him. I really don't. I just want him to get better and back to his normal self.
So it seems that when I went for my Sleep Apnea testing that I quit breathing 8 times every hour. When I had the loner CPAP machine over Christmas that number went down to 3 times every hour. So I am now the proud owner of a brand new CPAP machine. I am hoping that one day I won't need it but that may not be possible. I was able to use this one for 4 hours and 15 minutes last night before I had to take it off. So not bad really. I will take care of my headache tonight before going to bed and tomorrow I don't have to be up for any specific time as I am just delivering so no setting of any alarms tomorrow. YAY! I can also spend the whole day at home with the dog and watch him. I really do hope that he will be ok. And if there is a God I hope that he is listening and help my Ben out. I would hate to lose him. But if he is in any pain or what not I would hope that God would take him. I get so sad and choked up even thinking about it. I just hope that he loves his heater and his blanket.
But time to take a headache pill.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
So 297 lbs. Only 8 lbs from when I started Weight Watchers. Well what a kick in the butt that was. Tomorrow is the beginning of a new weight watcher week for me so it is the beginning of the rest of my life so to speak.
I am pretty tired today, and it is only 10pm. I would like to stay up a while longer maybe until 11 but I don't know if I can or not. Tonight is the last night with the CPAP machine as I want it nice and clean for when I bring it back.
Tomorrow is my last day of work this week, thank goodness. It seemed like a very long week. Next week is my first 5 day week in a long long time. But that is ok. I like going to work now adays. I am not tired there anymore, but that may change when I take the machine back. I do hope I don't have to go back on those pills. I hated the way they made me feel. And I have discovered that I eat a lot when I am tired. This week has been good.
It's going down to -29 tonight. Another cold night. May have to turn the heat back up. The decorations get put away this weekend. And I am going to watch The Blind Side with Sandra Bullock on Saturday. I can't wait. I haven't been to a movie in ages. Well I better get off my fat ass and get some stuff done so I can stay up another hour or so.
I am pretty tired today, and it is only 10pm. I would like to stay up a while longer maybe until 11 but I don't know if I can or not. Tonight is the last night with the CPAP machine as I want it nice and clean for when I bring it back.
Tomorrow is my last day of work this week, thank goodness. It seemed like a very long week. Next week is my first 5 day week in a long long time. But that is ok. I like going to work now adays. I am not tired there anymore, but that may change when I take the machine back. I do hope I don't have to go back on those pills. I hated the way they made me feel. And I have discovered that I eat a lot when I am tired. This week has been good.
It's going down to -29 tonight. Another cold night. May have to turn the heat back up. The decorations get put away this weekend. And I am going to watch The Blind Side with Sandra Bullock on Saturday. I can't wait. I haven't been to a movie in ages. Well I better get off my fat ass and get some stuff done so I can stay up another hour or so.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
9:22 on Sunday evening. I was able to get out of work at 2:30 this afternoon and had all these notions of cleaning the house and cleaning the dog crate and just plain getting shit done. Well what did I do? I slept on the couch until 8pm now I have no ambition to do anything. Not one thing. Oh except order pizza for supper. Supper at 9pm. I think, no I know this will be the last time I order in a while. I have to get this weight off.
Was only able to keep the machine on for a couple hours last night. Hopefully longer tonight. That is if I am able to sleep now after my nap this afternoon. Tomorrow I deliver so I will do some cleaning then. I did get the bottles and cans cleaned up. I hope to get the dry dishes put away and maybe do a load before bed. Hopefully put some more decorations in boxes.
Another day with not talking to Vicky, she is online but not talking to me. I can only presume she is talking to her friends in England. That is her choice. Was talking to my sister today and am ready to just not go to Cuba as she is not making me very happy. I do believe this Cuba trip will be the worst of my life. I should never have agreed to going. It isn't somewhere I would just go. But I will try and make the most of it. I have to it was too much money not to.
Talked to my cousins daughter last night for quite a while and it was nice. I sure do miss family now and again. Sometimes I think that they are all I have in this world. Sometimes I feel so alone and just hate it but I guess that is what God has for me. If I can get through this I am sure I will be much stronger but to sacrifice my heart is tough. I really don't think I know how to love someone as I really don't think I have ever been loved like I should have.
Well pizza should be here shortly and have to eat it hot!!
Was only able to keep the machine on for a couple hours last night. Hopefully longer tonight. That is if I am able to sleep now after my nap this afternoon. Tomorrow I deliver so I will do some cleaning then. I did get the bottles and cans cleaned up. I hope to get the dry dishes put away and maybe do a load before bed. Hopefully put some more decorations in boxes.
Another day with not talking to Vicky, she is online but not talking to me. I can only presume she is talking to her friends in England. That is her choice. Was talking to my sister today and am ready to just not go to Cuba as she is not making me very happy. I do believe this Cuba trip will be the worst of my life. I should never have agreed to going. It isn't somewhere I would just go. But I will try and make the most of it. I have to it was too much money not to.
Talked to my cousins daughter last night for quite a while and it was nice. I sure do miss family now and again. Sometimes I think that they are all I have in this world. Sometimes I feel so alone and just hate it but I guess that is what God has for me. If I can get through this I am sure I will be much stronger but to sacrifice my heart is tough. I really don't think I know how to love someone as I really don't think I have ever been loved like I should have.
Well pizza should be here shortly and have to eat it hot!!
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