Cruise in Review - Page 1 - Dec 7

Well here I am at home from my cruise. First I will say it was a great cruise, lots to do, lots to see and just so relaxing, BUT...

There is always a but, I don't think I will ever do a cruise again. Don't get me wrong I loved it, but it isn't ment for mothers with grown sons. Everywhere there were families of like more than 2, there were couples getting married and other couples as well. That is when I started thinking about how much Jason would have liked to go and how it would have been so romantic to be with him on the ship. The sunsets were beautiful and the sunrises even more spectacular. Just to lay in the deck chairs by the pool with him would have been so great. Then to eat the fabulous food, get room service because we wouldn't leave the room. But then he didn't go. He wasn't here when I came home either. I knew that. But I still would have loved to share with him the full vacation. I thought the vacation would rid me of all my thoughts and feelings of him but all it did was make me think of him more. So I have decided, no more vacations unless I am with someone and right now I don't think that will happen anytime soon.

I will post day by day what we did, so this is the preceeding day and Day 1 ~

We arrived in Miami at 7pm and stayed at the Miami Hilton Biscayne. We had a quick bite to eat there, I had the french onion soup and a ceasar salad. The soup I finished almost but not the salad. Alex finished that for me. I also had a Pina Colada as well. We stayed in Miami that evening and the next day we were taken to the ship.

Oh and what a ship it was, pictures will be posted on my facebook page for all to see. Day 1 on the ship we were still docked until about 6:30pm when we shoved off. The ship is incredible. Our stateroom was on deck 8 out of 14 decks on the ship. On Deck 11 that is where the Windjammer Cafe is, we ate there every breakfast and when we first got on the ship. My God the food was good. And free, you could have as much as you wanted. I did by a pop voucher so that I could have free pop instead of drinks that we had to pay for. Day 1 was pretty relaxed, we sat by the pools, Alex had a few drinks and well we walked around. We definately got our exercise.

It is Grey Cup Sunday and I am working what a drag. Especially when my team is in the finals and they are playing in Montreal.

I am tired today, the bad days are still around, like this weekend, all I could think of what he was doing. Then I would think that he should be here with me. But he isn't. His mother and I had a conversation last week. That kind of put me over the edge knowing he won't be back. I really have lost my soul and there is a hole in the place where my heart is. I don't think it will ever heal. No amount of time can repair this.

Only 5 more sleeps until the cruise and again I could care less. He has ruined this for me. His mom said that at least I had a lot of friends to help me through. The reality of it is I have no friends. Ever since he left I have been alone. I have only heard from Marci maybe twice in 21 days, and well there is no one else. I can't talk to anyone because they all must be getting sick of me. So I sit here in silence and hurt. The hurt is unbearable it will never be ok.

So what a day, the things people learn. I just found out on Facebook that Ms. Catherine is flirting with people on Meet New People. The latest flirt was Oct 4, 2008. So I think Jason is going into that with blinders on. He will get hurt. Like OMG! why if she was in a relationship as her profile says is she flirting? Makes me sick that ho! I really feel sorry for Jason now knowing what I do. I do think I will keep an eye on that though.

Only 7 more days until my cruise. Right now with all that has happened I could care less if I went or not but I am sure once I get there I will have a great time. Oh I still can't get over her flirting like that like she just has no morals whatsoever.

Oh well I have told him that when she hurts him and now I believe that more than ever, that he still has a place to go and to someone who truly loves him.

Well 11:47pm, at midnight I am going to watch After the Catch II then come back and work on on some work for my full time job. My weekend with my sister was disasterous, but oh well it is over now. Never again unless my Aunt Bebe comes along as at least she can control my sister.

Laura my Weight Watchers leader said I was down last week which is good. I am taking my book back again this coming week. Then I hope to get back to basics and on track for good. My back aches, I am exhausted and just plain feel like crap. All due to the weight gain I just know it.

Oh well I will get it together someday.

Well fancy this, 2 posts in 2 days. Someone call the doctor I must be sick. Well weight watchers didn't go well. I am up this week, not sure how much as I really don't want to know. 2 more weeks and I take my book back. Should be interesting.

This weekend I am in Calgary for the weekend with my sister and I don't do well while travelling. But I will make the conscious effort to watch what I eat. Tomorrow I will start tracking again. Oh what a struggle this is. I am hoping right after the new year to get a membership to the new centre but who knows. After all I will have more time to visit it as I am quitting the hotel when I get back from holidays.

I am hoping to have enough cash for the weekend as I have to pay the rest of my cruise on Friday. Then OMG!!!! I am going on a cruise that is totally not like me to do that. I want to stop by Alex's tomorrow night before heading on to my sisters.

Well it is 11:24, Jason has been sleeping about an hour another half hour and I can climb in. Then hopefully I won't get bothered. Lets hope anyway.

G'nite world.

Well here I am just wanted too post something as I haven't in a while. So much going on you know. It is almost midnight, Jason I guess went to bed with out telling me, oh well. Other than that I am off to Calgary this weekend for a girls weekend with my sister.

I have had enough, I feel like I am going crazy. Guess I was never ment to live with someone. I just can't do it anymore. Why did I ever allow this to happen? Now I feel like a schmuck if I ask him to leave but what option do I have? I am pretty much broke now I emptied the last of my RRSP's out yesterday because we have no groceries. Everything I buy to aid in my weight loss is gone before I even get to it. I have put on 30 pounds in a year, that is not good. I hate myself for letting it happen, I hate the look of myself. I just want to scream it at the top of my lungs. My work is my refuge. Wish I could sleep there but I can't. I can escape when I am there. I am tired of all of this. The Catherine bullshit, the not doing anything and the wanting it all the time. I am not built like that. I just can't handle it any more. I feel like I am losing control.

Well here it is 1:32am Saturday morning, I am at the hotel of course. Only 5.5 more hours to go.

So I completely blew the Weight Watchers today. Oh well, it is only one day. I will be good now until Wednesday. I have to blame Tim though for my falling off the wagon. I had to take him to the airport today. So my day of not going to Edmonton ended me up there anyway.

I did get lots accomplished though. I payed for my Seattle trip, signed my land lease and paid $250 on the arrears. I told Sandra I would be back on the 29th to pay more. The 22nd marks a whole month of activities. From Seattle, to the Oasis concert, Uncle Bob's 80th birthday, the football game, my sisters 50th in Calgary like wholly. My cruise will be a definate welcome for relaxation.

Anywho, gots to go, have to finish those darned tissue boxes for my Aunt. TaTa for now.

Well I am not impressed tonight. I went to get my treat for the week and low and behold it was gone. So I decide I want to have some cereal, the milk is sour. I got so upset that I just felt like crying. But I didn't I got pissed off instead. And here I am and he is in bed thank God.

Weight watchers was another gain, that is why I wanted my treat as I won't be able to have a treat for an awful long time. But oh well, guess I was never ment to be happy as everything that makes me happy is 'forbidden'. What a way to live the rest of my life. Be happy and compromise my health or be miserable and be healthy. Nice choices.

Checked the prices of flights to Seattle, since the last time I checked they have gone up like $45.00 but I am afraid if I don't go I won't last too long in this house. I am beginning to hate coming home anymore. I stay up until like 1am every night to make sure he is sleeping or I fall asleep on the couch. Am I ever cold hearted. Sometimes I just wish I could drop off the face of the earth, or just start all over, again. But I am too chicken. I would rather be unhappy than to start over or kick him out. I don't have a backbone for that kind of stuff as I was in that position once and would have given my left arm to have someone help me. But really is it all worth it?

Well I told Judy from Weight Watchers (hi Judy) that I would post some more pictures if I can. I will try.

Off to upload....Ciao

Well I am starting early today, 12:50 in the morning. What a day, I got 4 hours sleep this morning before I went to work at noon. I hope to get that much Sunday morning before I work. Susan is back thank goodness now I don't have to look after her dog anymore. Watered the plants at Marci's this evening as I went there this morning to feed Kelly. He wanted out so now I won't see him until he is hungry again.

This is ging to be a short one today as I am beat. I want to go do something so I don't fall asleep at the desk.

Ciao

2:47am thank goodness I am at work. And amazingly enough I am still awake. I will do the Audit just after 3am that way I will have lots of time to do some of my 'homework'.

Jason is at his mothers this weekend, & he did give me some more money today. Then he started in on Tim. I had asked Tim to come sit with me at the hotel as Trudy said it was one of those weeks for wierdos so just to be safe you know. Well Jason grilled him about coming up here. Well I knew he was going to be gone so how the hell could he be here. I guess time told him that he is too old to pull this childish shit. Well he is going to get an earful when he gets home on Sunday that is for sure. Like give me a break & grow the fuck up. My God.

It seems to be getting worse not better. I know that he is going to see Catherine this weekend as he is taking the kids to swim in Millwoods instead of Spruce Grove where they always go. But you know what, two can play that game especially when Garry has been chatting with me lately again. So bring it on I say.

Tim is off to the dump tomorrow for me. He pruned my trees in the yard today & shit it looks 100% better than it did that is for sure. I work noon to 5 tomorrow so I will be able to get some cleaning done in the morning. Tim wants to go for shrimp tomorrow night so I told him sure, we can do the casino thing too if he likes. I am sure he will like.

But it is getting close to 3, time to do some work.

Another day another dollar so they say. I am so tired. Not sleepy tired but just plain exhausted. Two more sleeps (if I can get some sleep) and he is gone to his mom's for the weekend. I can't wait. Saturday is trips to the dump day and Sunday is going to the storage with stuff from that spare room. He did give me some money last Friday and told me to take some every pay check. We will see how that goes this coming Friday when he gets paid. And he wants the kids for the long weekend which happens to be next weekend. Good luck saving money until then.

Lost 0.8 tonight at weigh in. Gonna go full bore this week to see what happens with weigh in next week. The physio therapist has me on the bike for 15 min and then the stair climber for another 5 each time I go there. So that is a good thing. I just have to stay going on the bike at home and start walking. I would really like to get a MP3 player so that I can walk and listen to tunes. Maybe someday.

Anywho, gotta get some zzzz's

It is 12:08 & here I am still working from home. Yee Haa! Jason read his letter today. He really didn't have much to say about it but I am sure it will come with time. He is getting the rest of his banked time paid out & told me that once he pays Crystal $250 that I can have the rest. I will believe that when I see it. But I gotta move here I want to get to bed by one & won't at this rate.

So I stop by the office last night for one last chat with Malinda & to pick up some more stuff she had in her office. Once we are all done the work stuff she gives me a pep talk about becoming the 'hero' & 'nipping things in the bud' before they become larger issues. Take for example this redline mess. There is absolutely no communication between Jeremy, Randy & myself, so with Malinda's encouragement I send out an email for all those who are concerned with the redlines to see if we can brain storm to see if we can make it more of a smoother process. So I took it upon myself to show that I am a 'team' player at Infratech although I work off site 100% of the time. I did exactly what Malinda said to do & even sent out the email that we both comprised yesterday. All is good right? This was Jeremy's response:

Lee-Ann...it's good to hear that you're finally on the right team...it has been my goal to streamline the entire drafting process since I took over management of the drafting department. It has seemed like Tom and yourself have been more keen on keeping the status quo as opposed to providing any input, as to how to better streamline the process. I've discussed these issues with Dan already regarding changes that we've been "attempting" to implement, but in order for anything to change, or for any system to get streamlined, all involved parties need to buy into the system.
I'll advise later today on wether or not a meeting of the minds will work for us on July 7th.

Like WTF? I have not heard from this guy since May 22nd when he told me:

I think what we would like to do for the time being, is to basically assume that you're going to do no drafting, Aside from emergency, (I need you to make this change right now) kind of work.

Guess I am damned if I do damned if I don't. So who knows what the hell I am supposed to do. He just made me out to not being a team player & sent that note to Dan. So did it blow up in my face? I won't know until the 7th. But I tell you at that meeting I am not going to say a word. Let them do whatever they like. I will just keep doing what it is I do, who knows what that is lately.

What a week this week has been and it is only Wednesday. Oh the dreaded Wednesday, weigh in day. I hope the scale is kind as I was pretty good all week. Only one day did I go way over my points. But we will see come 6:30

I get Friday off this week from the full time job to go to a Dr. appointment. It is that yearly yucky one I just hate. Then I get to go pay my down payment on my cruise. Yippee!! Next week is just one screwy week. I took the Monday as a vacation day, Tuesday is the July 1st stat holiday, Wednesday & Thursday I have my first aid course then Friday I am off to the city to see that ankle & foot guy. Can't wait to sleep in for a few days. And to top it all off Jason is on holidays next week & Tim will probably be in Red Earth so I will have the house to myself. Ahh bliss.

I am pretty sore today, I helped put the grocery order away last night & my shoulder sure hurts. I hope to go swimming so that I can sit & soak in the hot tub with this shoulder. Oh we will see. Maybe I will go anyway without Marci. She seems to be very aloof about going. Oh well I will just have to bite the bullet & go alone.

My sister pissed me off last night. Said that it must be nice to be rich. Like where did that come from & I am far from being rich. Mike makes damn good money & now she is getting the CCP so I don't know what her problem is. Just because I chose to go on a well deserved vacation with my money instead of spending it all on frivolous stuff like she does doesn't mean I am rich. She should think before she opens her yap. But it was the perfect ending to an all round shitty day thank GOD it is over.

Well my work isn't getting done any faster with me writing on here. So I am off....

Well I weighed myself this morning. 2 days late from last Monday when I started the Wendie plan. According to my scale I am at 279.0 where last Monday I was 281.2 so theoretically I should be down at weigh in tonight. I am really keeping my fingers crossed for this one.

I am quite tired today, again didn't get to sleep until like 1:30 in the morning. I do hate when that happens. I hope to go for a walk tonight so that the fresh air will knock me out. I tentatively booked my cruise this morning. Just waiting now to see how much of a down payment they want/need. I have quite a lot in tips saved and I get paid on Friday so we will see. Once I start paying on it then the reality will set in. I must pick up my prescription tonight as well. Gotta have them wake me ups.

Well time to get back to work. Again.

Guess I was unable to edit the previous blog, then this weekend was a joke. Shauna the front desk manager quit on Saturday, Trudy the general manager's mother in law passed on and I had to work an extra 3 hours Sunday morning. Then Pam called me Saturday night wanting to know if I wanted to work her shift on Sunday night and because I told her if she needed me to I felt obligated to do it. So tonight will be day 6 of 6 at Pizza Delight. My July schedule doesn't look much better either.

Jason is pissed at me too but who cares. Couldn't sleep last night because he was snoring so loud that I went out on the couch finally at 1:30am. Then at 4:30 there was quite the light show and pouring rain. Like wholly when is this flippin rain going to quit. I hope soon.

Tomorrow is weigh in day at weight watchers. I am hoping for a loss again this week. Got to be really good today and tomorrow so that maybe it will happen. I am deciding whether to join another challenge from July to Sept. That is an awful long time and I am not sure if I would be able to stay motivated. But I will think on it more as it is the summer and I can walk lots in July according to my work schedule.

Well my sister got her CCP decision. She will get about $9000 back pay and $650 a month. That is just great for a person who gambles. But who am I to talk. I went through enough the past two days to choke a horse. So on Thursday I am not going to gamble just go for supper. Enough is enough.

Well I am going to sign off incase I get kicked off due to the blocks. I am still amazed I can still access this from work. Later....

We get to go home early today according to the boss. Like right on, & we had a BBQ to boot. Life can't get any better. Well it could, I could win a million but...well maybe I do have a ticket for tonights draw. Another long day today all 3 jobs but that is ok. Still not quite sure what is going on at the hotel & I get paid from there today. It will be interesting to see if I got that raise or not. Ahh I am not worried I really don't care much anymore about it.

Another full week then 2 short ones here at the full time job. And what's with their security today, I can actually get on here. But I am going to go and see if I will be able to edit this later.

A good day today

5.8 thats right, five point eight. That is what I lost in 3 weeks. Can you believe it? I sure can't but hey I am extatic about it. My spelling is bad but who cares. Then we took Malinda out for supper I had chilli & a salad but had cheesecake for dessert. That is ok though I will get it off I am determined to do it so I will. Went back to the casino after I dropped the ladies off. I came home with $350 which is great. I brought all my tips so that was $325 so I am happy with the win. Basically the gift we got Malinda, & my part of supper are all covered. I really didn't spend a cent. I think I am actually up like $5, that is if I give Eleanor back the $25 she gave me for the gift.

Steve is going to bring the futon & computer desk to Whitecourt for me. OH YAH! Things are looking up. I will have to cancel the hotel room as I won't need it now & just give Steve $100 & fill his tank. What a relief. Oh how I love my kids friends. LOL. Two more weeks & my boy will be home for the weekend. I can't wait. And I will get the Saturday off all day & night.

Although I am tired & should go to bed I don't feel like it. I am going to put like $300 on my VISA, with my winnings & my hotel check. I don't have to use my ING account to pay my VISA as I don't have to go to Calgary now, yipee!! Alex still thinks that he will get my car. I will have to see about that. Maybe just until Sept as I really don't want him to drive it in the winter. I can't afford the insurance if he gets into an accident.

Anyway, it is off to watch the news then to bed I guess. Oiy I would rather sleep on the damn couch.

Another post in a week well wholly crap. But I have to wait until midnight to post like what is up with that. Jason has been drinking tonight & came up and picked me up at work. Not the thing to do especially when you don't have insurance on your vehicle. Now he wants me to go to bed, not likely that will happen I will probably end up on the couch for the first time this week. He keeps going into Tim's room & that is driving me nuts.

Anywho, it is another week & another WI. I am going to go tonight to the meeting & to weigh in. I have been following the Wendie Plan since Monday. I know I won't lose much if any this week. I just want to undo what those pills did to me 2 weeks in a row.

Eleanor & I are taking Malinda to the casino for supper tomorrow night. I can't wait. Maybe one night away will be good for me. Jason has informed me that we are taking Owen to Hinton on Sunday which I am still up in the air about. He is just going to torment the dog. But who knows. Sunday is a long way away yet we may not even go. I will have to call Marion tomorrow to see if she is going to have company or not.

Well I got some more work on my database to do before I hit the hay. So here's to another day in the life....

Wow my last post was Monday. Well I guess that is what happens when someone is always looking over your shoulder ever time you type.

I didn't get to my WI this week at weight watchers as I didn't want to get down on myself for another gain. This week will be the same but I am going. I am starting the Wendie Plan on Monday so that may help me out. I am totally off the codeine and I have decided not to take the anti inflammatorie's any more. I go for my yearly on the 27th and I want to be 'drug' free as it is put.

I finally sent my computer away to get the DVD drive fixed on Wednesday. Tim is being so kind as to letting me use his in the mean time. Not sure if he is going out east or not as it is next week or wait another month. His decision I guess.

The hotel issue I think is far from over as Grace asked me tonight when I can work after the 5th of July. Like make up my mind would she. Oh well what am I supposed to do. I want the cash to pay off my VISA right now as the pizza delight check is going to the fence.

I am off to Hinton tomorrow for groceries and to spend some time with my aunt Marion. She just had knee surgery and well I need to know how she is doing. I am bringing lunch then do my groceries there. Tim said he would come with me if he isn't going to Edmonton to catch a plane.

So until tomorrow I guess....Bon Nuit

June 2, 2008

Monday, my favorite day of the week. I got the Decals for the care and the laptop backpack on the Internet Auction. I thought I paid a pretty good price $125 for the decals and $33.50 for the backpack. Then went to the casino and lost my shirt. Oh well can't win all the time. Looks like Marci isn't going for wings now on her birthday, I kinda figured she wouldn't. Oh well that is her decision not mine.

Talking to Georgina tonight, my Avon lady and Melvin's significant other. I am trying to find out what she knows about what is going on at the hotel and she isn't saying a thing about it. So she knows what is going on and isn't telling me. Nice friends I have eh? Guess I am being shafted there. Now she is telling me that it is good I got let go as I can sleep Friday and Saturday nights now. So she knows something. Yeah time to break all ties with her. Oh well I can't be everyone's friend. I told her I wrote a letter to Trudy asking for an explanation, of which I am going to do, but I also told her I sent it to the labor board as well. Lets just see how far that will go.

Tomorrow is Tuesday, I work Pizza Delight. I am hoping that it isn't busy. But then again.....

May 31, 2008

HA! No one has commented on any of my blogs so far. Maybe because only a select few know I have even started one.

Well Trudy called last night & I called her on the hiring of a Night Auditor. She said that she did hire a full time girl that is to start on the 23 of June. Melvin will then go 3 days of maintainence & 2 nights of Night Audit. Wouldn't it make more sense if Melvin went 5 days maintainence & when someone needed the night off then fill in then I can keep my 2 nights a week? But no that is too sensible. She also went on to say that she wanted to be able to call me a moments notice if someone was sick or what not. Like what does she want me to do sit by the damn phone waiting for her call? I think not. Then the straw that broke the proverbial camels back came when she said to me that if I went full time night audit then she wouldn't hire this other girl. So she wants me to quit my $25+ an hour job to make $13.75 an hour doing night audit. Is she fucken' bent? I am not blonde for pete's sake or stupid for that matter. She proceeded to tell me that my last weekend would be July 4 & 5. Well I have already taken June 27 & 28 off so if she thinks that I am going to come back for 2 nights she is sorely mistaken. I find it quite odd that just last week she gave me 100% on my review & a raise just to let me go the next week. She is in to work in the morning tomorrow so we will see what she has to say.

Pizza Delight was busy again tonight but I like that job & they seem to like me there too. At least I know I am appreciated there. I am a little tired tonight & missing my kid. Not sure why guess I just need to know he is ok & that sort of crap. Did I mention how good my fence looks? LOL.

Well this work for Infratech isn't getting done if I am writing on my blog. Not sure if I will be able to post tomorrow as Jason comes home. And old eagle eyes, nosy himself would want to know what I am doing. Not happening. I want or need this for me. Somewhere I can talk freely about whomever I want. Then Monday I have to send my laptop away to get the DVD drive fixed so it will be 7-10 days before I get it back. Oh My Lord, I will have to put up with him with no distractions for that long? How will I ever survive?

May 30, 2008

Well here we are almost to the last day of May how this year is flying by. I am at the hotel now until 7am. Just found out that they may have hired a full time night auditor. Not sure what that will mean for me as Melvin would now go 3 days maintainence and 2 nights night audit. I guess that would put me out of a job which would really suck right now with all the holidays I have booked and the fence to pay for. Trudy is supposed to be working Sunday morning and I will ask her then what is going on. I just don't know what to believe from her anymore as just last weekend she said she was going to give me so much more to do and a 50 cent raise. Well I can only wait and see I guess.

Jason is gone to his mom's with his kids. Yipee!!! He sure pissed me off this morning. He doesn't understand what this medication is doing to me for pete's sake. I can't wait until it is done. To not be in control just bothers me to peices. But at least I can have some peace and quite for a couple of days. Again he did not pay me a cent yet. I think Instaloans is garnisheeing his wage as he brought in less than a grand this pay check. That is unheard of in this day and age. My hotel check for 48 hours was almost 6oo and he only brought in like 900 for 80 hours like that is so wrong.

But anywho gotta do some work on my spreadsheet tonight so I will definately stay awake. Looks like there is a CSI-Miami marathon on A&E as well so I have lots to keep me entertained.

Have a great night those who read A Day In My Life.

May 28, 2008

Yup here we are, weigh in day. I gained 3.4 pounds. Don't know how but whatever. I have 13.4 now to lose by July 1, like that is going to happen. I am getting so frustrated with all this. I really didn't even want to weigh in today but I must be accountable right? I feel like shit. The codeine I am taking make me loopy & tired & the anti inflammatory is making me feel so sick I just want to puke. Right now I would love to go somewhere & cry & when I am finished crying I never want to come out of the hole I buried myself in. But I can't do that, I have to prove I can do this. I did it before I should & can do it again.

Well the fence is pretty well up. Just waiting on the gates now. Not sure how much Steve is going to charge me. He did say he will take off some from the total for Jason helping him and if Jason keeps helping he will take more & more off. That is a bonus. Gets my fence cheaper & gets Jason out of my hair.

It is 10pm now & I can hardly keep my eyes open. So I am going to veg on the couch, watch a little of the tube & probably fall asleep like I have all week. Nite all.

May 27, 2008

Well wholly shit I just lost my whole post. I can't even remember what it said. What a nimrod I am. I know I was bitching about Jason but you know what I am too tired to repost the whole thing so I am going to call it a night.

Sunday May 25, 2008

Well here it is 1:45 in the am & I am starting a blog. Not sure how this will pan out but I will keep it up until I get bored of it which I can't see happening. So I have started a new challenge with Weight Watchers & my Inspiration Soup group. Slim Spring Flowers. I hope I have enough will power to lose my 10 pounds by July 1, 2008.

I did walk 5km for Vicitm Services in the RCMP Fun Run today. My legs are sore, & my butt but I do feel good about it. I am pretty tired, guess the codine & anti inflammatories I am taking for my ankle are taking their toll. Only 8 more days taking them. I hope I won't have to take them the rest of my life. But if they work then I will just have to buck up & take what is given to me right?