It's Friday night & here I am at home writing this. I once said to my sister that her life is what she makes it. Maybe I should take my own advice. I am pretty tired tonight but fear if I go to sleep now I will be up early in the morning. Something that I just don't want to do. Marci wants to go to the gym at 9ish but I like going a little later so that I can sleep in longer. We will see what the morning brings.

I finished book one of the Circle Trilogy by Nora Roberts. Kind of corny but will start book two tomorrow. I have to put the other books I have read in the bag I am bringing to Calgary with me so I can give them to my sister. I can't wait to have like 5 days off both jobs. It will be a treat that's for sure. I have to save all my cash so that I can buy a souvenier from the Coldplay concert. I am still debating whether to bring my computer with me or not. Probably not.

Jason has been gone now for 7 full months. Am I sorry he is gone, no. I know now what I don't want in a man and how I should be treated. Do I miss him? Yes I do. I miss the company, I miss coming home to someone. Am I lonely? You betcha. I am so lonely that it hurts me to the core. I have never felt this lonely ever. I hope I don't live the rest of my life like this. There has got to be someone out there for a person like me.

This past Wednesday I went for my mammogram and breast ultrasound. The doctor gave me a clean bill of health. Such a relief. Now I can concentrate on getting this weight off and snagging myself a male companion. I feel gross and ugly and all that good stuff that women feel. I feel like I can't do the weight loss thing but know that I can.

Any way tomorrow is another day. Hopefully better than today.