Tomorrow is weigh in, not impressed with that but it has to be done. I know I gained the weight back that I lost but oh well. I really don't care anymore and I know I should but I just can't keep going like I am. I hate it I really do. Ahh well that is just part of my existance right.

I have decided that I really don't know who to trust anymore in the way of friends. Marci doesn't give a shit anymore. I called her to pick up some nectarines from me and well she conveintly forgot. So now they are going to go bad. My other friends never call me, and the others that do talk to me live too far away to just go for coffee. So I think I am going to just take a break from everyone and well I am my own best friend.

Had about an hour of sleep last night which is starting to wear on me. That potluck is on the 18th, I am seriously considering not going now. I am not a drinker, I am older than most that are going and I don't really fit in. I never have fit in so why put myself through it. Tomorrow I want to start cleaning the house up. Have to do the dog crate and kitty litter, oh what fun. I think Ann wants to go for wings so we will see about that. Then Thursday is the concert. After that my obligations are met until the 18th and like I said I will really think hard about going to that.

Well time to take my pain killer and head to bed. Maybe read tonight maybe that will help. Who knows.